They just made visitors verboten in my friends apartment complex, so there is another avenue of social interaction gone! Don't know anything else to do at this point but sit back and wait, and look further into those online companies teaching english to Chinese. I recently read where the companies located in China have a whole bunch of new restrictions including having to have a passport; I will check out the ones state side first, even though the Chinese-based companies are reported to be the best employers.

The really shitty thing about my current situation is that I need to leave the state now and go to family in a neighboring state, but since I puttered around doing that it may be on stay indefinitely. You never know when something like this is coming down the pike; it is just about always something, and I just didn't strike when the iron was hot, though its only been 7 months since mothers death, and I have a low grade dysthymia that probably never goes completely away unless I am so tired I forget how lonely I am.

This is the worst problem with being a single person into your sixties without kids: nobody needs you anymore, and you feel like a useless appendage just waiting for SS to kick in. I would like to make myself useful in the reserve health corp, as I was a former respiratory therapist ages ago, but they arent looking for me now as I have been out of it for over a decade.

Sad to say but true, I am in some ways the ideal candidate, because no children or wife or even girlfriend, needs me. I am totally expendable and its always sad to realize that in any state of affairs.